ヘイゼル・フィンドレーさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ヘイゼル・フィンドレーInstagram)「Dad loved colour, novelty, mountains and beaches. He hated everything grey and dull which ruled out most of western culture for him. He prioritised the now over the later every time. His connection to nature was nothing short of mystical and he could get any plant to grow anywhere. Climbing was never a sport it was always a means of moving through the world and having experiences. He didn’t use chalk. He wore tie dye, jeans and sandals in nearly all weathers including in the Himalaya. He gave me the things that I love most: climbing, travel, adventure, the natural world and challenge. As a kid I remember thinking that if I could be half as strong and brave as him I’d be set for life. He wasn’t really a responsible father but we had a strong connection and a deep understanding of each other. It was more than a parent-child relationship – we were also great friends. Dad died 2 weeks ago but I lost him in 2016. His mental health deteriorated suddenly and our connection was broken, just like that. He moved beyond the reach of my help or anyone else’s. He had a lot of underlying health conditions, probably a consequence of living in the ‘now’ and not later. Sometimes I feel guilty I couldn’t save him from all that and sometimes I feel angry that he didn’t save himself. Time to grieve the dad I had as a child, the dad I had as an adult and the dad I lost just recently. I can’t quite believe I’m talking about him in the past tense.」3月15日 1時42分