ヴィッキー・パティソンさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ヴィッキー・パティソンInstagram)「Having PMDD is like building a sandcastle of good habits, positive energy & a loving life only to watch it all get swept away to leave depression, anger & hopelessness in its wake. The wave recedes. You begin to rebuild. Just as a new wave crashes 🥹 I've felt great recently- which I'm genuinely grateful for. The last 7 to 10 days have been amazing. I felt like me. Positive, proactive, enthusiastic about my work, sociable, motivated & full of energy. But the last couple of days, the tide has started to turn & I know what's coming. I can feel familiar feelings starting to creep back in- a missed call from a number I don't recognise sends my anxiety soaring, I'm exhausted & want to sleep desperately but my mind races & insomnia threatens, I’m constantly on the verge of tears & even the slightest inconvenience has me catastrophizing everything. Dark intrusive thoughts get louder, their narrative becoming increasingly more believable.. You are useless, you aren't successful, you're irrelevant, you're old, you're ugly, no one likes you.. Just give up. 🥹🤦🏻‍♀️ My diagnosis gave me such a sense of validation & a better understanding of why I was feeling the way I was- it was so liberating to know that I wasn't just weak or crazy- there was a reason for why I was feeling the way I was & I wasn't alone either. But it also came with the realisation that I'm going to feel this way every month. Over the last few years I've convinced myself the way I felt was because of my cyst, or my egg freezing, or because I'd had my contraception removed.. But now I know it's not- it's because I have PMDD & that is forever & ever amen 🤦🏻‍♀️😂 And even though I have started my journey to help me find ways to help & alleviate some of the more intense PMDD symptoms- this is going to be my life for awhile. And I've found that abit of a difficult pill to swallow. I think that feeling is exacerbated by the point I am in my cycle aswell to be fair 🤦🏻‍♀️😂 Anyway, the point of this post was this, PMDD is a punch in the dick & if you're suffering with any of the symptoms I've described go & see your doctor & if you've already been diagnosed you're a warrior & you're not alone 🥹💪🏼」9月14日 19時41分