ヴィッキー・パティソンさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ヴィッキー・パティソンInstagram)「I have struggled with my periods my whole adult life- but over the last 5 years or so my PMS symptoms have been completely out of control- it has affected my relationships, my work & my quality of life. At times, it made me feel like I was going insane- I just do not recognise myself for 2weeks of the month & ever so gradually- that time frame is becoming longer- & sometimes, when I'm proper in the midst of this & totally consumed by my own dark thoughts I convince myself that I'm never going to get better.. that these feelings & thoughts aren't temporary. That this is who I am now. And that terrifies me. For years I have been to see doctors & spoke at length about my concerns & in best case scenarios I was pacified- repeatedly told: 'let's take out your implant', 'periods do get worse as women get older', 'that will be your cyst' etc.. & in worst case scenarios I was made to feel like I was hysterical & unable to deal with the physical & mental ramifications of a period like every other woman could. I was made to feel weak. And I felt embarrassed that I was making a fuss when everyone else seemed to be ok 🥹 So I would leave & I vow to take it on the chin. But the last couple of months have made me realise I can't go on like this- I'm getting married to the most amazing man, I have the best family & friends & a job I love- and yet i still spend half the month lost. It's like my brain hates me- I am depressed, despondent & hopeless & have no interest in things that usually bring me so much joy.. and trying to not only deal with that but hide it all from everyone has left me exhausted & overwhelmed. This week I decided enough was enough and went private & told myself I wouldn't be dismissed. When the doctor said to me 'it sounds like you have PMDD..' I cried. I cried because I felt f**king heard in a medical setting for the first time in years and also I cried because hopefully now I can start trying to manage this rather than just 'get on with it'- like I feel like women are expected to. For the first time in ages.. I feel more positive 🥹♥️ For anyone else struggling with PMS symptoms & wanting to know more about PMDD, please head to my insta story ♥️」8月22日 23時14分