ウエストコーストチョッパーズさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ウエストコーストチョッパーズInstagram)「The push & pull of the universe is an undeniable force… Last week was one of the happiest times in my life. At the same time it was one of the most sad. The morning after welcoming our baby son “Bishop” into the world. I also had to face the unexpected death of my dog Jasper. I also had to start to filming Tuesday morning. I really couldn’t wrap my head around the gauntlet of emotions I was facing. I didn’t have the bandwidth to deal with Jasper being gone along with a the joy of new baby and focusing on the work I had to do. I made a mental decision to push my feelings off until this week. Sunday is the day it officially caught up with me…. I’ve had lots of dogs in my life, but Jasper was really a special one to me. Always by my side, demanding all my love and attention. He always had to be the first one in the shop every day, and never more than two feet away from me. Every time I looked at him, he was looking at me with that dumb look like “ok what are we doing now?” He slept with me (in the bed) every night until he was 4 years old. He also swam with me in the pool everyday after work. The sense of loss and sadness for him I feel today shows just how much these damn dogs mean to me. The fact is. I really don’t have a lot of friends, or much of a life outside working. And I’m in the shop I’m with these dogs for 8-10 hours a day. I feel like a huge chunk of my life is spent wondering, worrying and caring for them. I feel like I’m just rambling at this point. I guess I’m really having a hard time accepting that he’s not here anymore. I need to focus on the other dogs that I have and love. They also need me. I just wasn’t ready for him to be gone. I really hope that I get to see Jasper again some day. #jessejames」7月5日 0時44分